Stephen Jenkinson (part 5 of 7) Elderhood in a Time of Trouble



at what point did you recognize that that culture was the appropriate scope at which to address problems in a time when we hear a lot from specialists hmm that's a good question what did it take to get me off the hind tit of individualism what you're asking me hmm well I don't think anybody moves off the hind tit because they think that everything will be better no matter where they go I think you get off the the hind tit because some you're utterly exhausted because you can't you just simply can't you know it's not a lot of Honor attached to it if I think about it I think probably it broke down in the early days of when I worked in the death trade and I was some employed by a system that was death phobic and I'm in a miscalculation thought I was there to help people die but nobody was there to die so they didn't want any help to die they wanted help to not die that was the basic kind of psychic deal that was being struck every day and I couldn't do it it doesn't make me a better person I'm telling you I didn't have whatever it took to be able to corroborate the notion that you shouldn't have to die I couldn't because I was left with the realization you should have to die and that's what dying is it's one of life's great shoulds being offered to you like that and there were absolutely no takers and somewhere in there I I think it hit me that people were trying to exercise their quote individual human right to self-determine and that was probably the entire breakdown of the thing because their exercise of self-determination was basically subverting the natural order of things that says that every aspect of life sustenance derives from death I mean you're farming just outside this window here and you can see it that if everything's alive all the time nothing can grow because life is not what sustains life life is a taker right it's not a giver to take her it has tit and needs all the nutrients as it keeps taking keeps taking keeps taking but it has a an arc that lasts only so long and all it's taking Ness eventually collapses back into the ground if you let it and that collapse begins the possibility of the not yet living to begin to draw sustenance from that place it's obvious okay so then you apply it to a palliative care unit where people are dying then what's the consequence in every way that it can be imagined for people who've been on the take as North Americans their entire lives in every way that it can be imagined refusing to pour all of that benefit back into the kind of psychic gene pool of collective life by refusing to die by hating death and by hating everything that it is by hating their bodies as their bodies wind down and so forth what's the consequence this is not life affirming to refuse to die and to exercise your personal out clause this is life annihilating and as if our consumptive life is not bad enough and hard enough on the environment but when finally it's our turn is to give a little back considering how lucky we've been we'd become even more Scrooge like and hold on even more intensely to what we've been entrusted with that's what I saw and somewhere in there I couldn't do the job you know so I just want to say this doesn't make me in any way a wise or achieve I'm telling you I couldn't do the job that's nothing to be proud of I literally couldn't do it and so then I realized this is a very time limited arrangement if I'm going to be here there when they catch on to what I'm doing it'll be over and it'll end up Lee and it did and when I changed course I didn't last for very long but I I had a lot of administrative benign neglect nobody paid attention for a while because there was notoriety and there's interviews and they just loved that you know there was a lot of ink and that was enough but if they had read what I was saying they would have started to the powers that be would have said wait a second this guy's not with the program you know and that's finally what died wise became is a not an expose not a not a complaint it was a it's a lament look what we've set ourselves up for we're not allowed to stop and this is supposed to be an act of love that you owe yourself and your loved ones not to quit you know and on and on so what's left as a field of operation when you realize that functioning at the level of the individual turns you into a life coach that's what it does right and you're in the customer satisfaction business because you need customers so then how do you get people you go along with them and they don't want to age fine let's not age and they don't want to die in they hate endings great and exert for suckers so let's and I just wasn't that guy so what was left well the collective you know lucky enough to have been born in Canada where we pay for each other's poor health you know and it's just in the matrix a little bit doesn't make us better people because we ever equivalent dilemmas I'm sure but but in that case you grew up that you know in that circumstance your understanding that you have a basic fiscal responsibility to your neighbors that in times of trouble you sustain them somehow you know through the health care system through your tax dollars and that's not that's not challenged and we're enormous ly lucky that we have it and somewhere in there I suppose that coalesced inside me as having a sense of responsibility to to the ignored reality the collective reality and so I simply occupied a huh a place that no one was interested in is how do we come to how do we come to these things if it's not personal choice which it virtually never is nobody chooses to die badly nobody chooses to collude with the refusal to contribute to the psychic gene pool by it nobody does and nobody benefits from it and it's all but universal as a strategy of quality of life all of the hope the whole thing so so I just took what was left you know wondering at this cultural level and suddenly there's a school about it you know the unauthorized history of the West and so on and next thing I know you're asking me this question you

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  1. Thankis for putting these videos together. I've really enjoyed watching them all. Only two more to go. Blessings Julian

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